I Miss You

During this time of the month, where i can say peak month for us accountants, a few days before beginning of the month it would be hellish. All those stressful workload, sleepless night, high volume of inquiries etc. But it is this time of the month that i am getting some kind of feelings. Feeling of missing someone dearly. Maybe its just me (mengada).

Truth is i am missing you so much, so much that i never thought i would miss you this much. BUT you will never know it, cause i won't ever told you. I am not good at expressing my feelings but you can see it through my actions.

I am really looking forward every weekend. It is more meaningful now than it was before. Thank you for coming into my life and making me happy and i do hope that i would bring the best in your life too.

"Ya Allah, sampaikanlah salam rinduku kepada Muhamad Syafiq Bin Nasurudin sehingga aku menjadi kerinduannya."

It's Ok

All i ever wanted was to be someone's "just right" and their "one and only"

But . . 

When that 'someone' appear and love me for the way i am without me doing anything.

Love me before i even start to develop my feelings for him.

Saw his future with me, met my parents and wanted to marry me.

With all the little things i have, for him its everything he love.

I don't deserve a guy like him. A guy who have everything. A guy who can do anything.

He's smart, he knows what to do, he have a great circle of friends. (and he is super duper good looking)

I don't deserve such a perfect guy like him.

But on the other hand, i am very happy with what we had planned. Although the heart still can't believe its happening. May Allah ease everything. Amin.

You Were Unexpected Surprise

When you let go of the past, something better will appear in your life.

The best thing in life happen unexpectedly.

The best stories begin with "and, all of a sudden..."

The best adventures were never planned as they turned out to be.

Free yourself from expectations.

The best will come when and from you least expect it.

Falling in love with him was completely unexpected. There was definitely a moment when something quite magical happen between us.

I don't know when or how it happen. But It happens.

And when I say I Love you, i don't mean i love you more than you love me.

I mean i love you more than the bad days ahead of us, i love you more than any fight we will ever have

I love you more than the distance between us,

I love you more than any obstacle that could try and come between us.

I LOVE YOU.AND.I PROMISE I WILL STAY NO MATTER WHAT.

I dedicate this for you.

What are Words by Chris Medina.

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see

How every single promise I'll keep

'Cause what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then that's all

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, they never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me

And I know I'm meant to be where I am

And I'm gonna be

Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side

I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they're done

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, they never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

And I'm gonna be here forever more

Every single promise I'll keep

'Cause what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

Its a New Chapter

The hardest part of life is moving on. But it is not an impossible thing to do.

A person can 'like' 'love' another person, if they open their heart and give the other person a chance to your heart. Its the only way of a broken heart to heal.

From my previous post, yes i leave it hanging, supposed to be 'Permata Yang Hilang 4' but i decided that enough is enough. If i keep on posting about him, meaning that i am still in the old chapter, the same old book.

So its been 2 weeks and i am recovering. I recovered. I move on without looking back.

I open my heart to someone new and i hope that the person please do protect this fragile heart that had been hurt so bad.

To my future, (maybe still wandering around looking for me) there is this one song that i will dedicate to you (the lyric is what i want to tell him)

Here goes,

I had move on and forget about him,
I trully had let him go.
and now i just have you 
Have faith in my love.

Please be strong to be with me stay by my side
For the rest of your life because 
Forever i will be with you.

I love you all of my heart
And all of my love is for you
Only you.

I wish that you will be my last, forever until my last breath
Stay by my side
And we will be happy eternity,


Can you guess what song is this? It's a Malay song and i am keeping this song very close to me for a very special someone.

Someone who will never make me cry and accept me for who i am. Love me more than i love him.
And most importantly someone who will never take me for granted.